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THE VIRGIN BLOG . . .
Never thought it would come to this. The truth is when you find it all inside just waiting to get out - the medium does not really matter that much any more. Nothing at this moment maters more than every breath that I am taking while putting this down on this blue background; which I guess more than reflects the mood.
It has been a beautiful birthday week. It was the usual birthday with me using it as an excuse to completely disengage and feel sorry for myself; for getting older I guess. How all of that has a new perspective today. It's been a crazy up and down past few days, but today tops it all. I heard the most horrible news today.
My colleague and a very good friend in another city took his life thursday night. I called him 7.30 that night right after I left the office. It was I guess my last call . . . I had left him messages over the past few months . . .never got a response . . never really expected a response.
what about his wife and the three kids. His youngest . . . she is so new to this world. Only a few months old. What drives a man to such a step? Makes me wonder how in my selfishness, aging bothered me this weekend.
Saw "Everything is Illuminated" tonight; not the best movie when you are feeling low. How I need to put away the fickleness and then just maybe one step at a time re-connect.
R.I.P buddy . . . . i will miss you
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